venus0rising

i am officaly a college graduate hehehe, yay. it fells so odd to be done, well almost i still have to take bords but im trying to think positive about that. got to spend all day yeasterday with nick we went clubing after the cerimoney with amy. and all this coming week we have stuff planed. this week is going to be crazy. im already getting shit from mom about it but oh well, im done caring what she says. next weekend dad is coming down sents he couldnt be here for my graduation, he'll meet nick then too. im a little nurvice about this but i know it will go well. im going to a party again tonight with some peo;ple who coujldnt make it last night, this should be fun.

I GRADUATE TODAY., heheheh i cant bleave it, i made it all teh way through. at 2pm today ill be a college graduate, hehe. i was so nervice yesterday taking my practicale, at first i really thought i was going to fail but i got through it with a 95%. its all kinda surile, seems like not that long ago i started school. kinda messing with my head. im still upset my dad wont be at my graduation. i understand the acadimy is short so im not mad just really sad. it sucks, i wanted him to meet nick today. but hes coming down in a few weeks to meet him, hopfuly wihtout a gun. he dosent trust my jugment when it comes to guys anymore. hopfuly hell see nick for who is really is and except him. heres to hoping. i finished my dress just in time, put on the last peaces last night. im prity proud of this dress, i think its the best thing iv made for far. i think im getting a handle on this sewing thing.

one week, thats all i have left. i cryed at alicias graduation. im so proud of her but im sorry to see her go, its strange to think i wont see her every day next week. its still a little cureal for me that im graduating college. if youd asked me a little over a year ago if this is where i thought i would be, id have laughed. went out with nick again last wed night. that was amazing, drank a bit more then i probubly should have but it was ladys night. and i didnt throw up or pass out so i didnt cross any lines hehe. i just talked to much but hes still dating me so i dont think i said anything to bad. i meet his friends and got the ok there, he meet a few of mine and they like him so thats good. this sunday im meeting his dad, spirits help me but im nurvice. its one thing to meet the freinds but to meet the family. corse im already startng the girly stuff, 'this shirt, no no no this shirt and thoughs pants. no bad idea, this dress?' lol im hopless. get to spend most of this weekend studing for my writen on monday. yuck  100 ? test on everything iv studed these last 13 months. this will be fun. got to keep telling myself i can do this. writen on monday, practical on thur and if all gos well graduation on frd. from here on out i think feb has become my fav month.

havent wrighten in here for a long time, mostly for the reasion theres been nothing to wright about. wake up, go to school do a hair cut or somones nails go home fight with mom, cook dinner go to bed - repeat. but not fate or the univers or somthing has seen fit to grant me some change. iv gotten real into the anime cosplay went to my second con a few weeks ago with my first costumes. now i have my new list for the the next con in la in july, hehe happy birthday to me :) i get to run around con dressed as noel from trinity blood, if i can get the costume done in time. im praying ill have the money for both tickets and mutiriale to make them. but that shoujldnt be a problume if i get through bords fast enough. im so exsited and nervice i graduate from college a week from frd. im not sure im ready. bords scare me half to death.  i meet, well really remeet (from highschool) a great guy. and hes coming to my graduation so that will make me a little less nervice. if only i could drage him to bords with me hehhe. i think im more happy about the guy then anything. i wosent sure id find anyone i could really trust again after everything but hes so sweet its a nice change. its still very new so whos to say how this will play out but it will be fun finding out.

blows the dust and spider webs off the journal. sorry i know its been ages, i cant even remmeber the last update and its late and i want to go to bed so guess what im not updateing much lol. heres the short verstion. amy intruduced me to the wonder of anime and now im addicted. goign to ohiocon in jan with her and badger, yay for con. im working on getting costumes togeather :) well see how the money works out on that one. im almost out of school, yay for that too. i graduate in feb. college will finly be done. yay now if i can find a job. im not expecting to may problumes, our placement bord is always full of places looking. im 7 chapters into my novle im proud of myself, im going to stick wiht it this time and get this one published, iv had to much good feedback to now at least try. so ill keep my fingers crossed for that. get to hang out wiht amy and badger tomarow, im thrilled about that. dont get to see badger nearly enough. should be fun, as long as we dont freez to death, but i think its not below 0 tomarwo so we should be alright.

well saterday was an intresting mix. the morning was very nice. talked with my freind from egypt for hours, that was soo nice. did a little cleaning and started getting ready for my date. had everything plained. what bus at what time, my lightrail conections, everything. then it all fell apart. got to the buss stop and was waiting for the buss. it pulls up and its none other then creapy, gropy buss driver man. he wont let me on the buss, says im not aloud to ride cuse i conplained on him about his little grop fest a few weeks ago. well guess was ding bad im going to compleain again cuse now you thratened me too. jake ass. so i called mom, who was out with grandma to take me to the light rail station. got on the lightrail only to go the wrong way. call to ron #3 to tell him im going to be later. finly get there almost 2 hours late. hes not there. 20 min later still not there. im calling amy asking when is it past the time when i got stude up? i dont know, iv never really dated. so this is all really new. he finly showed, his car wouldnt start, completly dead so he had to take a buss, he texted me but sents i dont have text i didnt get it. im still kinda amazed it really happend. it was really fun once we got togeatehr. hes really nice and sweet. we were going to go out again dancing on the 12 but like an ideat i forgot its ndk so i had to tell him today i couldnt make it after all. he didnt seam mad, which is good. not bad for a first date after all this mess. got to go shoping with amy and mom today. that was really fun, im exsosted now, not sleeping well the last 3 days hasent helped that any. im going to try taking something tonight. i have a test tomarow, if i cant sleep for once theres no way ill pass it. i should have studied this weekend :( at the moment i cant remember what its on, not good. i hope i dont have a client tomarow, i just kinda wanna clean my locker and work on my papers. heres to hoping. i have to get all my costumes togeatehr for ndk, im not sure where half my fairy costume is and i havnt picked most of my school girl. luckly i do have all of the vamp costume, i hope i have enough money to help amy out with that next week. it snuck up on me, corse me thinking it was in oct. for most of the summer didnt help any

what is it about me and nut jobs? i swear they all come for me. my bus driver disided he was going to get frisky with me. thankfuly hes not my bus driver anymore but still. i dont like busses to begin with now this, this sucks. luckly hes not being a bug about it. i havent heard anything from him in two weeks so im thinking its safe to say its over and done with. got my con tickets paid for, yay about 3 weeks from now. :) this will be fun. didnt get to the costume i was hoping for with the demon but eh, ill do it next year if this year gos well. i cant wait, seeing amy in her native anime inviroment should be intresting hehe. im going to be so lost all 3 days i know it, but it will still be fun. have to find a way to carry stuff when none of my costumes have pockets. i have my first date on sat. im hoping hes not a nut like the buss boy. *crosses fingers* he seems sweet so far so well see. god i wish i had dated more in highschool, i have no idea what to do or say or how to act or anything. i have a felling im going to make an ideat of myself. eh at least he'll know im a dork up front hehe. if sat gos well hes coming with amy and alicia and i to the church on sun. i hope there not crouded like last time, but with the holiday they probly are. wonder if i can fit a water bottle down my corset. the line at teh bar last time, even for water was 45 min long. one of these days ill have to try the other clubs in denver. goth night can be fun but theres got to be others out there. im sick of waring black hehe. i wish school would let us ware diffrent colors, anything ill even take pink at this point. luckly only 5 more months give or take. yay. im still not happy alicia is graduating before me. and only by two weeks, :( not cool what em i gonig to do for two weeks without my alice? i keep threatining to super glue her to her chair hehe. still trying to figure out where we are going after, its grown/shrunk. now its not mom anymore but amy and alicia are coming with me. but they closed the star trek experince in vagis so i dont want to go there anymore. amys thinking wa. but ill have to add money to my ticket and alicia dosent want to go there. shes thinking cruse. there a really cool pow wow cruse amy told me about im thinking of looking into. its not to expensiver eather. my buget for this trip is exstreamly limited. i dont know i still have a few months before i have to book that plain ticket or loss it.

i got her. i got my puppy on sat. shes soooooo cute. hehe my little titania. were keeping grandmas pup till her eye heals from catirac surgury. so we have the two chiwhawhas at home right now. there so cute. neather are even a lb. yet hehe. im happy now :) hehehe im a dork i know

i passed hehe i passed my practical test with a 97% and my wrighten with a 99%. im affishaly a floor girl now. and i already have a regulare hehe. im so exsited. im almost half way done with college. another 9 months give or take and im out hehe.
i get to go see my puppy tomaorw. iv finly picked a name. titania, queen of the fairys. hehe. as soon as i have the pics on to the computer ill let everyone know.

:-D im a mommy hehehe. im getting a chihuahua for my birthday. i got to see her the other day. shes two weeks old. her eyes arnt even open. ill have pics soon. shes soooooooooooooo cute. has the markings or a shepperd. shes so adorble. i swear it fells like everythigns startign to fall into place. im out on the floor at school now. i got a 97% on my test out. i can work on people now. so fell free to come in and get somthing done hhehe. for the first  time in years i fell truly happy. :)